I decided to set-up this separate space for my friends, family, and anyone else who is interested in following what is bound to be an adventure filled with heartache, heartwarming and most importantly humor!!
So why Zero to Pregnant? Well for those of you who don't know... I never wanted kids, well to be more exact the idea of pregnancy completely grosses me out (still does) and I had no faith in my ability to do a good job (still have to wonder).
But that changed somewhere in the last 3 years. A perfect storm of events if you will.
1) I was diagnosed with cancer at 29. Cancer itself is a wake up call (good morning this is the hotel operator with your 7:00 wake up call) about your future, getting told you might not be able to have kids because of it? Alarm Clock going off LATE (Get the hell out of bed. You are running late and you have probably already missed the bus. AAAAAHHHH).
It's one thing to make a choice to not have a child but you always know the option is there so you can change your mind. But to have that opportunity taken away? Ouch.
2) Turning 30. I know, I know it's cliche. So sue me, I am sure this won't be the last time, but it's true! I used to be awkward around kids (same with dogs) didn't really get the whole "maternal instinct" thing and cringed at the idea of diapers. I turned 30 (okay I think it was closer to my 31 Birthday) and holy smokes my biological mommy clock went into overdrive. All of sudden I could see myself with kids, found myself being interested in a family, and was drawn like a moth to a flame to adorable little babies. Little feelings of jealousy when everyone around me was having babies and seeing how this one simple thing made them whole.
3) A precious baby. My niece was born 2 months premature and truly when they say it takes a village, this little girl needed a village. I was honored to be a part of that group. To watch this beautiful baby learn, struggle, see, touch, and well...fart, I was blown away. okay pun not intended lol. Through this I learned that not only could I care for a child, but I wanted to.
4) Stability. I am in a great place in my life, good job, car with room to grown, etc. most importantly with a beautiful partner whom I adore and builds me up. She (names and identifying information will be changed to protect the completely guilty, snazzy pseudonym to come) is my rock and together we build a strong foundation. I don't know if there is ever a perfect time but now is as good as it will ever get. So here we go!!
Welcome to my Adventures in Conception... the NOT so old fashioned way :)